Hormones are Here

The hormones are taking over. I've cried 2x in less than 24 hours and I am on the constant verge of tears.

First set of tears came last night because I was feeling FAT. My jeans are tight, some of my work pants don't even fit. The belly is bulging. I know all of the things you guys are thinking: "It is for a good cause. This is just the start, it is natural to gain weight. Its just the hormones. You are not fat." My head knows these things to be true and to be honest, I don't care. I feel FAT and it makes me sad to sit at the dinner table with my button undone. Being pregnant and getting fat is one thing. Being infertile, doped up on hormones and feeling fat is another.

The second set of tears came tonight when something I had planned just didn't work out. It wasn't a bit deal, I was just frustrated and a typical (hormonally balanced) response would include disappointment. It wouldn't include 15 minutes of crying hysterics.