Day 50: A Moment of Weakness

I stood in the shower tonight and had a moment of weakness thinking, "All I need is a home pregnancy tests and the answer would be mine!"

I went back and forth on the pros and cons of an early test while I stood there. As much as I want to know, I am SO SCARED about the results that I am deathly afraid of testing. I made up my mind before I got out that I've waited this long and another 48 hours for the "official" results wouldn't hurt me.

I must admit even after making that decision, I got out of the shower, dried off and checked under the bathroom cupboard to see if I had any extra pregnancy tests left from previous cycles. Thankfully I don't.

48 hours more. I can hardly wait!